Tuesday, April 23, 2013

oh baby!

We're having a BABY!!!!

It was a normal week for me. Wednesday of last week I drove to the obgyn to ask a few questions about my menstrual cycle. When I left tears were in my eyes. The nurse looked at me with knowing eyes...."You're Pregnant!" I had NO idea I was pregnant! I took a pregnancy test in February and it came back negative. I went on thinking I wasn't carrying a baby, but I was! Life was normal. For 3 months I had no idea. No morning sickness. Oh SO thankful for that! 

Looking back onto these past 3 months I realize where all of my tiredness came from. I took a nap everyday when I got home from work and every weekend I was taking 3 hour naps. I also noticed being hungry ALL the time. 

While in the doctor's office I had to sit for 10 minutes by myself, which felt like an hour. I wanted to call everyone! I was shocked, surprised, and stoked all at the same time. So many thoughts were going through my head. "How will I finish school? I'm going to be pregnant on our vacation? What will I wear to work? Will I stay home? How do I tell Bryan?" The doctor did an ultrasound to determine how far along I was. Seeing that baby made the "You're pregnant!" statement more realistic. I was 13 weeks, which puts me at 14 weeks today. I am due October 22nd. I'm in the 2nd trimester and am feeling great. 

I didn't know how to tell Bryan the good news. I had an idea to tell him with a piece of fruit. When he got home I handed him a lemon. I told him that the lemon he was holding is the size of our baby. He laughed and told me "Yah right!" and I said, "No seriously! Look at the ultrasound picture!" We hugged and laughed and cried. He was just as excited as I was when I first heard the news. 

We are going to find out the sex of the baby. The first week of June will be when I am 20 weeks. Maybe I can find out a week before for an early birthday present!!

Our family is SO excited for us!! I am eager to learn about "baby stuff" and being a mom. I am very happy to have my sister pregnant at the same time! We can share in the heartburn, the hunger pains, the big bellies, and the cravings! Lots of pregnant girls in our family...It's in the water --- my sister in law, Jessica (my brother's wife) gave birth to our niece last week. AND my sister in law, Briana (Bryan's sister) is due in June. Happy to know that our babies will be close and best buds!!! The grandparents are obviously excited!! 

We are thrilled beyond measure to be having a baby. It was a little earlier than planned, but God knows best! His plans are always better than ours!! 

Please keep me and the health of our baby in your prayers. We're praying for a healthy baby, full term delivery, and time to reflect on me & Bryan's relationship before the baby arrives. 

***(Photo credit- to my wonderful sister! Thanks Sarah!)

Bryan & Amanda 

we love that baby already! such a joy! 

so sweet! gotta love the belly (or lack there of) 
we have lots of reading to do!!! 

pretty soon we'll have a whole drawer full of these little onesies! Eeeeek!

Tuesday, April 9, 2013

Sprinkled with LOVE!

my brother and his wife are expecting their second baby girl very soon. SO very excited! to make them feel oh so special both of our families "sprinkled" them with a little love. dinner was eaten and gifts were opened.

we have such a loving and close-knit family. jessica is a sister to me. we have known each other for 10 years. wow...the time has flown by! she has been my sweet sister in law since october of 2006. i have had the opportunity to know her on many levels. from quoting every movie we have seen. to talking about babies. husbands. and most importantly our Heavenly Father. i am so lucky to have her in our family. i never have to worry about how silly i might look when i cry because she is the type who will be crying right with me.  she is happy for me when i am happy and she is sad when i am sad. she has a compassionate heart. she truly brings joy to our family.

i love my big brother. i was happy when he married the love of his life and have become even more happy for him with the birth of his baby. you never cease to make me laugh when i'm around you. you're smile is contagious. you are passionate about what you do. i love knowing i have a brother who is a jack of all trades. from raising chickens to growing a garden. i promise to come over for free food. you just wait! i'm very proud of all that you have accomplished, josh! one proud sister.

love you josh & jessica!!!

Sweet treats---my mom's homemade chocolate cake. 

Sprinkled with LOVE!

Preggers-- a sweet niece & a handsome nephew due 2 months apart. 

Wednesday, March 6, 2013

a soul was saved with the loss of another

last year was a happy year for us. 2012 - a year of many firsts. my first days working at harbour view. our first marriage conference. my first 5k run. my first 8k run. buying our first house.

even in the happiest of years there always seems to be some anguish. in november my uncle eddy unfortunately took his life. why? that is a question we will never begin to understand. his farewell was unexpected and I miss him a great deal. i was at work when i found out the news. i was devastated. my heart was overwhelmed with great sadness. how could he not know that he was loved? by me. by family. by God. how did he not know that we would stand beside him? these questions and more will never be answered. i do not dwell on the questions because i have hope. 

i have hope. i do know that i will see my uncle again where we will spend eternity together. years ago, my dad had the opportunity to walk my uncle into a life of following Jesus Christ. praise God! that is what we cling to. knowing we will see him again. 

the pain in me seemed too much to bear. but God said, "I'm not finished with this yet!" he makes beautiful things out of ashes. he turns the right wrong. he creates good where the devil intends evil. he makes us new. he transformed this story from one of sorrow to one of rejoicing. 

God has reached into the hearts of my family and changed us through this tragedy. through my uncle eddy's tragedy our family remains strong. through this tragedy my cousin has decided to FOLLOW JESUS. she was desolate. she was searching. she felt abandoned. forsaken. God found her in the midst of her grief. God found her in the midst of her questions and her agony. God found her! you see, God doesn't just allow sadness to happen without a perfect powerful plan. his plan is much greater than ours. "For my thoughts are not your thoughts, neither are your ways my ways, declares the Lord. As the heavens are higher than the earth, so are my ways higher than your ways and my thoughts than your thoughts (Isaiah 55:8-9, NIV)." God had a plan that would be used for a greater good. an unexplainable plan. 

a soul was saved with the loss of another. remember this when you don't understand why God would allow you to experience such hurt. such pain. loss. God has a greater plan that we can't see. that we can't understand. He tells us ---"For I know the plans I have for you, declares the Lord, plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you a hope and a future (Jeremiah 29:11, NIV)." he is a loving God. a gracious God. my uncle surely did not die in vain. one more life will enter the kingdom of heaven because of his death. rejoice with me. celebrate with me. 

we love & miss our uncle eddy