for the past 3 years I have gone to the Devoted Women's conference at Wave Church in Virginia Beach. I go because I know that God will show up. because it will be an amazing time. because I love spending a whole weekend with my favorite girls. worshipping together. laughing together. shopping together. this year was different. this year I came fully expecting that God would alter my life. that the presence of the Holy Spirit would be known throughout the weekend. several days before the conference I prayed for God to change me. that my heart would be open to all that He has for me. he showed up & I heard him loud & clear! I was SO blessed to have Bryan care for Ava & let me enjoy the weekend without the distraction (she is a super cute distraction, but it helped not having her with me). my momma also kept Ava on Friday. I was so thankful. it was the longest time I had spent away from Ava. I missed her, but the time away was well worth it. Lisa Osteen-Comes was speaking about aspects in our lives that distract us from carrying out our destiny & our purpose in life. one of the distractions we come across on this journey of life is FEAR. God spoke to me & said that I have a spirit of fear. at the time I did not know where my fear was coming from or what I was fearful of. I just knew I needed to be obedient to God by walking down to the altar & be delivered from my fear. I now know what my fear was. I had a fear of someone breaking into my house. a stranger. a murderer. a rapist. I believe the fear came after I had Ava. what mama doesn't want to protect & keep their new baby safe?!? right!?! my fear looked like this --- checking the locks on all the doors at least 2 times before I went to bed every night. keeping the bedroom door shut at all times during the night. shutting the bathroom door while I blow dried my hair. waking from terrifying dreams of men breaking into our home. my fear was that someone would come inside. that someone would sneak up on me. because of the dark room or the noise from the blow dryer I would not know if anyone was there. I had a fear of the unknown. the truth is there is no one there. the reality is that it could happen. but I will not live my life in fear.
fear is not from God. fear is from the enemy! fear is the voice of satan! once my fear was made known I began to feel the power I had within to win. when I feel fear rise up in me I say, "no. not anymore!" I pray against the fear. I cast out fear in the name of Jesus. fear has no place in my home. in my life. in my marriage. in my child. if your struggle is with fear, let it be brought to light. don't allow fear to get the best of you.
don't allow fear to win!
we are overcomers because He has overcome the world!
arm yourself with the sword of the Spirit. your Bible.
"greater is He who is in you than he who is in the world." - 1 John 4:4
"the Lord is with me; I will not be afraid. what can man do to me?" - Psalm 118:6